he night of the closing ceremony in Varkala I couldn't find the words to describe how I experienced the month of teacher training. I needed some time to process, in fact every day I'm still doing so. The TTC was for me the start of a different way of life, a new consciousness, continuing on a path of change I started a couple of years ago and now can follow with more faith, courage, inspiration and dedication. It is extremely hard to teach a group of foreigners from different backgrounds and with different levels of experience about the true meaning of yoga in only one month. In the West yoga is considered as a mainly physical exercise but I didn't count myself among the people who do it only for this purpose. However, during the training and the weeks after, I realized my focus had been too much on the asanas and needed to shift to the other branches of yoga also. The first day I said yoga for me personally is also about UNLEARNING. Unlearning to be competitive, to compare, to want to be the best, to always aim for more, better and faster. During the training I was definitely confronted with this side of myself and consciously tried to let it go. I think the curriculum created a good balance between the physical and mental practices. The asana classes were superb, with two teachers very different and unique, both transmitting their message in their own personal way. Both Vipin and Prashant were such an inspiration and taught us so much more than only asanas. I still hear their voices giving me guidance and encouragement whenever I am practicing. We were very lucky to have so many great teachers for such a small group. Everybody was always available for questions, doubts, an interesting talk or even just a fun afternoon amongst friends. Kerala is beautiful and it was the right place to combine the yoga with ayurveda classes. No need to say Dr Saneesh did a wonderful job. It would have been nice to get some more practical knowledge on basic ayurvedic diagnose and treatment. How to tell someone's constitution, simple herbal remedies, oil preparations or other ways to cure the most common diseases. The massage workshops and the cooking class were great. For me personally Varkala Beach and the Dreams hotel weren't exactly what I imagined for a TTC. After all you're not there for a holiday, you're there to learn, right? Of course this is only my opinion, I would prefer a place that allows more focus, maybe Rishikesh would be better for me. I would have liked to have more mantra classes, from day one. Now even at the end many students didn't know the mantras while this is an important part of yoga and something you wouldn't easily start practicing on your own. I absolutely loved Gangesh' philosophy classes, I was sad to not have had more time with him. We were blessed to have Swami there with us, his presence, his classes, his stories, his energy, his smile, his kindness, ... Amazing. The anatomy classes were very interesting. Vivek has a very particular way of teaching which I adored. It would be nice to receive the powerpoint presentations he used - I asked for them but maybe he forgot - and also the powerpoint presentations for the other classes. The food was delicious, I didn't realize until later how very lucky we were to receive such good meals with such variety of fresh fruits and vegetables. For me, one month was way to short! It took me quite a while to get over many personal blockages and by the time I felt I was really making process the end was almost near... So I left dreaming of doing the next course and continue learning. I traveled in Kerala for five days but was missing the yogi life too much, after having learned so much in one month I felt like just backpacking was so pointless! So I spent my last three weeks in India in an ashram, continuing the path that Rishikul had started guiding me on. It was an amazing experience. There was a lot of chanting, a lot of meditation, selfless service, compulsory classes. It made me realize our TTC was very 'free'. People were often missing in classes, there were not many rules nor homework or a kind of final exam. Of course you can't expect students to follow all too much restrictions during a TTC outside an ashram. But it made me think maybe we were too spoiled! The last day of the TTC we were asking Vipin and Prashant for personal feedback, but apparently it's not the custom to give each student individual feedback after the training. I still think that would have been very helpful. In the end Vipin did tell me we lacked devotion but I didn't understand what he meant until I spent some time in the ashram... I needed these extra weeks to understand that it's not just about the asanas... It made me realize I was trying too hard to get into the final position, forgetting about other more important things. In the end the most important thing I have to say is thank you. A genuine thank you from the bottom of my heart. The TTC was only the start, this one month the beginning of a more conscious, more balanced, happier and healthier way of living, through yoga. I truly hope to continue learning, to continue growing in my practice and to be able to transmit and share this all with others. I often felt so small and humble, and that the only thing I know is that I know nothing... There is still so much to learn and I know you all have still so much to teach, so I also hope this one month will not be the end of my journey with Rishikul.