I attended the Ashram for 4 months.
The “alleged’ co-founder Kristina Baird arrived midway.
I was immediately aware of her disruptions during asana practice whereby she would lounge around while consistently talking loudly, blaring out “observations” about people.
There was no respect for the practice, or people.
During the pandemic she contacted me, and in her first encounter with me (online), someone whom she barely knew, was highly emotionally dysregulated.
It was a dumping on an unwitting recipient.
She would alternate between crying hysterically, talking gibberish and at one point stated ‘you must think I’m a mental’ and 'I've gone dark'.
For over 10 minutes it continued, settling somewhat but was still intense and nonsensical?
When I later mentioned what she had said about herself she accused me of using her words against her and covertly threatened me with slander - however I was repeating her words back to her?
This is a bullying technique to prevent people from disclosing her behaviour - which was, in my time teaching her online, peppered with micro-aggressions towards me and included her divulging private, sensitive information about people she had contact with at the ashram. It was often uttered in vulgar language.
I advise caution disclosing personal information about yourself to her or others anytime and in so-called "chod' practices. She betrayed confidences, twisted scenarios to smear and 'gossip'.
It lacks ethical leadership.
I was appalled at her reckless and scathing commentary of people which was not invited by me.
When I confronted her about this she claimed she 'thought' I wanted to know? She euphemistically describes it as 'sharing' but it is not shared in good faith. It is private information about other people - which I'm sure they would not want shared.
I witnessed scant demonstration and understanding of the actual asanas by her despite the fact she claims to have 500 hrs TTC.
She couldn’t practice - on her own?
I actually taught her during the pandemic because she confided in me that she didn’t have the ability or discipline to practise on her own?
She asked me if I could give her my notes regarding one practice which I did which I felt was strange? Particularly as she said she didn’t know it? Later on she claimed that she did? It seemed disingenuous as though she were trying to get ‘information’ from me by appearing as though she didn’t know?
She wanted to know which teacher taught me it and everything about my interactions at the ashram - to covertly collude with others, undermining me.
She intimated I should find out more - ‘use’ the teacher as a means to an end, presumably to relay information back to her? For, she was claiming that she had been ‘frozen out’ of the inner circle of the Ashram.
I refused, and I made sure she knew, that I would not be her flying monkey!
She was deeply envious of one of the respected female teachers there and jealously confronted me - asking me why I had "liked' a post of the teacher who shared her reverence for Bhagavan on Guru Purnima on FB?
Kristina reposted it on her FB - in a projection, a rant about narcissism (her obsession) - claiming I was a narcissist and another time 'fake' - despite the fact I taught yoga, actually taught her online, did multiple trainings, including 500 hours at Shri Kali.
She intrusively scoured my social media, tried to divide the respected teacher and myself, remarking that she knew trouble was brewing when that specific teacher "liked a post of mine'.
She even likened her situation to Britney Spears's.
Unbelievable!
She claimed she wanted to 'sabotage' other people there and their ventures and cried when I told her they weren't effected by her attempts.
She said she wanted "world domination' and for Bhagavan Shanmuka to 'fall at his Shakti's feet' (meaning her).
When I confronted her about her behaviour - she claimed that I 'wanted to collect dirt on Shri Kali" (her projection again) and that I was an 'outsider' and not welcome at Shri Kali.
This isn't dharma - it's adharma.
This isn't freedom nor celebration!