Healing by learning to accept limitations…
In the fall of 2006, the pain in my hands and wrists started. By September 2010, typing for more than five minutes made my hand go almost completely numb. I was 32. Through my journey into yoga, I have learned that by accepting this body’s limitations and uniting the mind’s desires with the body’s abilities can lead to liberation from chronic pain. Today thanks to my dedication to practice yoga and Kimberly’s patient guidance, I can use the computer with no pain and I have begun playing music again!
I was originally diagnosed with an early stage of carpel tunnel syndrome with peripheral neuropathy. I was devastated. A life without full use of my hands seemed horribly unfair. I began to try all of the prescribed fixes: hand braces, alternative keyboards, and steroids. I even began to consider surgery.
I began practicing Ashtanga Yoga with Kimberly Sotelo at Yoga Ananda at that time. I was very excited by the practice and felt that it might improve my wrist and shoulder problems. So, I began to push myself very hard. Soon, I injured my wrists. My little balloon quickly deflated. The promise of a solution limped away. After all, how could I possibly do all of these difficult arm balances with damaged wrists?
At that time, Kimberly helped me modify the postures to match my ability. She taught me about ahimsa (do no harm). I began to remove the self-competitiveness from my practice and focus on the fundamentals (bandhas, breath, and flow).
I continued this way for several months, paying close attention to my body. I noticed that my wrists began to feel more open thanks to all of the stretching. I learned that there are many places on the hands that weight can be carried, some good and some bad. By learning about my wrists and respecting their limitations and abilities, I discovered how to strengthen them gradually.
In a recent phone call with my mother, she remarked that I hadn’t complained about my wrists in several months. It was then that I became fully aware that through the Ashtanga practice with Kimberly, I had healed my wrists. I am now using the computer with no pain.
My wrists will need to be maintained throughout my life, but practicing authentic yoga has shown me how to do that.
I could go on about the other benefits of the practice including: improved breathing, eliminated back and hip pain, better balance and coordination, brighter outlook, increased ability to focus and manage stress, and the unrecognized bliss of flexibility, but it’s time to go practice.